Friday, August 13, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Have you seen my brain? I dropped it somewhere
Saya menjangkakan bila saya masuk tahun kedua, saya akan improve..dalam erti kata yang lain, saya akan menggambarkan yang saya ni ADA OTAK. Geez, sangkaan saya meleset. Lagi lama study, lagi rasa bengap, lagi rasa unorganised, lagi emo, lagi teruklah pendek kata. Kalau sudi sila baca royanan ini. Buat yang sedang buat PhD dan dikhuatiri akan terjejas dengan royanan tak berkesudahan ini, sila jangan baca. hehe
1. I dont know is it just me or memang isu kelam kelibut tangan 2 tak cukup adalah isu semua orang. Saya tengok Gareth ngan Fi macam selamber rock jer. Adekah kerana otak saya kecik, maka otak saya punya kapasiti lebih terhad? Encik bos suruh buat literature review, dia nak 80%. Masalahnya, benda yang paling tak best adalah buat lit reviewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! Tambahla for climate studies untuk perkembangan cecacing semuanya dipublish sekitar 1960an gituh. So, kena pi library dan fotostat. =(. Ada sapa-sapa boleh bagi tips untuk rasa best buat lit review?
2. Saya masih gagal untuk grab the main idea of the results. Selalunya apa yang saya present adalah benda yang supervisors takmo. Sentap kan? Apa yang depa nak, I tak present. Amik, sentap berganda tak? Pernah satu hari tu lepas miting down satu hari, sampai rasa nak gantung diri kat kipas. Nasib baik dalam bilik takde kipas siling tuh, dan takde tali..Esoknya jumpa encik bos dia terus sound " I was annoyed and dissapointed with your report". Terus bercucuran air mata. Bukan kecik ati, tapi rasa frust ya hamat dengan diri sendiri. Frust sebab I dah setahunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn nam bulan. Tapi leagi dasat dari bebudak undergrad dari segi kualiti kerja. Motip sangat memang tak nampak salah bila buat. Bila dah diskas baru sedar silap2 bodoh yang tak sepatutnya dibuat.
3. Berbalik pada lit review, saya memang malas dan begitu senang distracted. Skang ni tgh pulun preparation untuk next experimen dan untuk write up untuk journal. Nak pulun publish sebab dah tak larat nak tgk data eksperimen lama. Tau tak saya dah present kat dua conference dannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn bila cek2 balik ada kesilapan analisis fkdjhfaksjhfjhsdakfgahjsfgkjs. Padahal dah cek banyak2 kali. So, ingat nak hadap semua data, analisis betul2 dan publish pastu simpan dalam elaborate untuk jadik chaptor. Malas dah tengok. Malassssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
4. Hanya SATU tahun je lagi untuk setelkan lagi 2 eksperimen. Pastu bergantung mood encik bos, samada nak tambah eksperimen atau halau balik Malaysia. Rasa mcm nak halau diri sendiri balik je. Chapter satu habuk pon takde write up betul2 lagi..
Cuba bayangkan, kalau ini royanan orang yang berkeluarga atau buat study part time logiklah. Ni single mingle maseh bermasalah. Gosh....
Mebi kena pi jumpa kaunselor balik. Dah skip jumpa sebab busy =(
Till then, selamat meroyan!
Overdose is bad
Dalam kehidupan di donia nan fana ini, kita kena maklum yang apa sahaja benda yang overdose akan memudharatkan, either oleh pelaku atau 3rd party. Overdose gula boleh dapat kencing manis, overdose garam boleh mengakibatkan kencing manis, overdose protein boleh merosakkan buah pinggang, overdose jealous akan menyebabkan pasangan susah hati, overdose yakin akan menyebabkan orang lain intimidated, overdose merokok akan bunuh diri sendiri dan orang rapat, overdose gedik akan membuatkan orang rasa mual, dan overdose MEMONDAN akan menyebabkan orang rasa getik ya amat sampai terpaksa ketap gigi. Berpada-padalah dalam apa jua tindakan demi kesejahteraan kita bersama.
Salam Ramadhan.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Kasih ibu
Khamis lepas birthday Charlie. Saya email mak dia, ucap terima kasih kerana lahirkan Charlie. We are missing her so damn much.
Dan ini reply mak dia.
Dear Dijah,
I was very moved to receive your email expressing your personal thoughts and emotions, I can understand it was a hard day for you. It was a very hard day for us also and for Rachel who is in Nowra. I think it was especially hard for Rach because she is away from home.
Ralph and I are keeping going with the continual work on the farm but the wound is still very raw. Some days are OK but on others I still feel very sad.
I hope your PhD is going well. I think of you often, sorry I haven't emailed you but I find it very hard because it brings out so much emotion.
I would love to see you again well before you finish your PhD. If you feel that you would like to visit Charl at any time we would be more than pleased to have you stay with us. If you wished to come down on the train we could pick you up from the station or the local airport if you prefer to fly. I don't think I could handle the trip to Armidale. Charl's headstone and kerb have been put into place and we are keen to commence the garden before the spring commences. I will send you a photo when the plants I have selected have been planted.
I told Rach tonight that you had emailed me and she asked me to let you know that when you asked her, before Charl died, to be your friend on facebook and she declined, she didn't realise at the time that it was you and that she would love to be your friend. She apologises and hopes you weren't offended - she really didn't know that was you - she recognised your ID, I suppose, when she went onto Charl's facebook.
Take care Dijah. I know that you miss Charl very much, she was a very loving and caring girl and great company. That laugh!
Please say hello to Lewis and Sarah for us please.
I look forward to hearing from you at any time.
Love,
Chris
Kasih ibu, selagi hayat di kandung badannya..
Hello!
Salam sayang buang peminat2 sekalian. Mohon maaf atas kemalasan yang melanda, sehingga sudah lama blog ni tak berupdate.
Saya malas update skang…So, untuk memudahkan anda keep track kalau saya update, bolehlah link kan.=)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I'm doing good
I'm doing good.
Sekian.